almost for 10 days...i could feel that the people around me are suffering....the reason is...iam blabbering, rattling, ranting, what not?.....thats basically due to the eccentric thoughts inside me...iam being very careful in using the word "eccentric"...because it may sound odd....is this word related to psycho...thats what my uncle said on the other day...but i feel every human being is eccentric in someway or the other....sometimes....and so iam...iam trying to figure out the reason for this...partly succeded.....the reason is "ripples"....they are widening and they never rest..they are CONTINUOS....non-stop.....iam pulling all that inside me to bring back peace.....not able to...may be due to things thats happening around me....iam not the reason for the ripples...its somebody else throwing stones...my defending failed..after all iam yet another human being...(ordinary person with ordinary thoughts and emotions)...."hope" is the tonic which iam taking right now...it reacts for sometime....i could see that iam loosing control....but helpless....
iam searching for the one which will bring back PEACE......
iam trying to accept me as what iam and not as what i dream to be....an ordinary person and not a superman...
iam trying to accept the fact that people who are really close will leave us one day....nothing stays.....
all the building will collapse one day
iam trying to make me realise that "life is still beautiful"...and its better...may be not the best in the world...but its still better
iam trying to smile inspite of these .....
life is all about balancing...everybody does it and so me...