From the movie, "The pursuit of Happ"y"ness".

Its an I in "Happiness".
There is no Y in "Happiness.

This is part of my Life story.

This part is called "Riding the bus".

I still remembered that moment.

They all looked so damned happy to me.
Why could'nt I look like that?

That my be happiness is something that we can only pursue.
And may be we can actually never have it, no matter what.

Dont ever let somebody tell you, you cant do something.
Not even me.

You got a dream.....you gotto protect it.
People cant do something themselves...they wanna tell you, you cant do it...

If you want something...go and get it...period


Feeling underrated and unappreciated...

I had to do it in 6 hours, what they do it in nine.
In order not to waste any time, I was'nt hanging up the phone in between calls.
I realised that by not hanging up the phone , I gained another 8 mins a day.
I was'nt drinking any water..so I did'nt waste any time in the bath room.

The next day after work, we just went to the beach.
Just Chris and me.

Far away from buses, noise and a constant dissappointment in my ten-gallon head...and myself.
Because, when I was young and I'd get an A on a history test or whatever, I'd get this good feeling about all the things that I could be and then I never became any of them.

This part of my life..
This little part...
is called "Happiness"

I am here again....alone on the bay...
Sitting in front of the computer..listening to enigma's "Sleep"...

"I can summarize everything I have learned about Life in three words: IT GOES ON!" (Dr.Leo Buscaglia)

"All that I love loses half its pleasure if you are not there to share it." - Clara Ortega

"A million words would not bring you back, I know because I've tried, neither would a million tears, I know I've cried."

Today was just one of those days where everything I did reminded me of you and every song I heard somehow related to you. I hate days like today, because they remind me of the one thing I dont have.

Life doesn't hurt until you have time to yourself to think about how things have changed, who you've lost along the way, and how much of it is your fault.

I'm holding on to something that used to be there hoping it will come back, knowing it won't.

Sometimes the memories hurt more than the pain.

There's always that one special person that no matter what they do to you, you just cant let them go.

The truth of the matter is, I still have feelings for you. And no matter how many times I tell myself that I'm better off with out you, a part of me just won't let go.

I know I ve been selfish....Don't hate me. Don't regret me. Don't even forget me.

If I had to live my life without you near me
Days would all be empty
The nights would seem so long
With you I see forever wrote oh so clearly
Might have been in love before
But it never felt this strong


My dreams are young we both know
To take us to where we want to go
Hold me now, touch me now
I don’t want to live without you


Nothing’s gonna to change my love for you
You already know by now how much I love you
One thing you can be sure of, I’ll never ask for more than your love
Nothing’s gonna to change my love for you
You already know by now how much I love you
The one that changed my whole life through
But nothing’s going to change my love for you


If the road ahead is not so easy
Love will lead the way for once
Like a guiding star
I’ll be there for you if you should need me
You don’t have to change a thing
I love you just the way you are


Come with me and share the view
I’ll help you see forever too
Hold me now, touch me now
I don’t want to live without you


Nothing’s going to change my love for you
You already know by now how much I love you
One thing you can be sure of, I’ll never ask for more than your love

Nothing’s going to change my love for you
You already know by now how much I love you
The one that changed my whole life through
But nothing’s going to change my love for you

Nothing’s going to change my love for you
You already know by now how much I love you
The one that changed my whole life through
But nothing’s going to change my love for you

I have a serious Bass addiction...

The range of human hearing is approximately 16Hz to 20kHz. 16Hz is approximately the lowest note a pipe organ will produce. Sub-16 Hz bass is good too, but you feel it rather than hear it. Generally speaking, most floor standing loudspeakers will reproduce from the upper 30 Hz range up to the audible limit. Bookshelf speakers will not plumb as deep, perhap only going as low as 50 Hz, depending on the loudspeaker. If you want explosions to sound like your room is coming apart, if you want to feel the action onscreen, if you want ultra low bass to slam you in the chest, we need a sub that is flat down to around 20Hz.

Well,
I am seriously thinking of taking a break....

Stop all these non-sense stuffs and start few things new...

weighing the pros and cons...and of course consistency.

Sometimes pain flows from within us,
as though a grief a mother would feel,
at the passing away of her unborn child,
a child whom she has not seen, touched or cuddled.
But, only felt as a presence within her;
a part of her.

----------by Ra.

and I cried now..

after a long time

for no reasons..