24th October - Wednesday

its been 10 months since I met her last

Waited for her for more than 2 hours.

How I felt when I saw her at the railway station, iam unable to describe. Words do not have that much power.

From that moment, till she left we were just looking inside each others eyes. They communicate much more than words. she came home. everyone was there. but still we managed to find some time to spend together.

rain ruined. she could not able to spend much time.

Those gifts were really nice.

Only with very few people I feel the closeness. From whom I expect something. The freedom of pouring inside out. We talked. but we do not know what exactly we spoke. words were there just to show people that we are talking.

When she said its time to leave, a ball went deep into my throat. it hurts. after dropping her at the station, while i was on my way back home, i was not able to define my emotions. why did she come into my life? why did she leave? what is there in between us? what are we going to do? what is the relationship we share? why is this hurting?what exactly is the plan GOD have for us? really confusing when i think about this in deep....i can define almost all the relationships and could draw that line.....with her i do not know where the line starts and where it ends...i wonder if there is any line....do I promise her anything?..no i do not...do i want to? sometimes yes...it makes sense if i had this feeling some 10 years back...i dont know why iam experiencing this now...