so far, its going somewhat well....
i am balancing myself without seeking an alternate...till this moment....
....:-)
I am happy about that....

I take this time to refine myself....all i need at this moment is this...
the re-defined, refined mind.....

with all the sweet memories buried deep inside....

I dont know if iam trying to control the ripples or adjusting myself to live with them...
whatever...
I AM TRYING......

LOVE is giving someone the power to destroy you but trusting them not to.

I miss you when something really good happens, because you are the one I want to share it with.

I miss you when something is troubling me, because you are the one who understands me so well.

I miss you when I laugh and cry, because I know that you are the one that makes my laughter grow and my tears disappear.

I miss you all the time, but I miss you most when I lay awake at night and think of all the wonderful times that we spent with each other for those were some of the best and most memorable times of my life.


MISSING U MORE AND MORE EACH DAY...

Missing someone,

When all is said and done,
you are part of me.
That's the way it was meant to be.
People are brought together for a reason,
everything happens for a reason.
I believe the reason that you and me were brought together was because we complete one another.
We fill in each other's missing spots with love.
And if someday God decides to tear us apart, I
trust that there is a reason.
Cause if there is a reason for love, there is a reason for life beyond it.

When I see you this thought comes to my mind
Life is sunshine wherein you are the provider of thick shadow [symbolising that u r there to protect me against all that is evil]
Today again my heart raised a desire
Today once again I had to convince my heart

Stay Centered
In the battles of life, you will take punches.
Some may hurt. This too will pass.
You are the center of your universe. Take care of your own needs first. Then go to your family, then to friends, neighbors and employees. Move on to the larger communities. Don't use saving the world as an excuse to forget your family.

Don't allow others to rush or pressure you to act before you can decide what is right. The most important thing that a father can do for his children is to love their mother.

Stand with your knees slightly bent. Head up. Breathe deeply from your belly.
You are a very small part of the grand scheme of things.
You are one with the universe.
You are everything and nothing.
Remain calm, balanced and aware.

The reflection

The reflection of the face staring back at me,
is a stranger,
one I wished I had never seen;

the eyeslook sad,
filled with sorrow and pain;

puddles of rain,
cheekstear-stained,
looking beyond the black circle's inside the iris's,
I see the picture so clear,
a void of dark shadow's - "love once lived here"
the space is empty,
old memories strolled on the floor like trash,
worthless treasures of the forgotten past - dust covered wishes,
lay in the corners of a once peaceful mind,
though it seemed the wind howls,
as if in pain,
is this my mind ? Inside of my brain?
Iwalk the rooms and halls in search to find a piece of happiness back intime,
- still alive,
but all hope is gone,
this is what you left that was wrong;

inside the mirror
I crawled one last time to look inside of my head
I was once alive "you killed me",
now I am dead -inside the mirror,
inside of my head
I lay down a love that’s gone,
that’s dead -


by Unknown.....

What makes life so interesting is the glorious uncertainty of it all. The fascinating thing about life is that your fortunes can change overnight. So, if you are going through a period when nothing seems to go right, endure it. Do not take unnecessary risks. Everything might seem dark at the moment but so is the world just before it is the dawn of a glorious day. May God always be with you and guide you with his constant presence.

Here I am,

This is me....

Sitting in my workplace, looking at the monitor, headset playing the "Sahana" song,
Sipping a cup of tea,

wondering as to what i have done in all these years........

Huh.....

anyways, happy birthday to me......May god bless me.....

like always, let my path shall be guided by the almighty.....

peace.....let the world shall live in peace.....

cheers....:-))

"Our lives have taken us on different roads.....
Let's jus' hope our roads cross one day.......
Till then do keep in touch always!"

When i was alone in this world, u were there
when my life was tough, u were there
Iam missing u terribly my dear "wilson"

I know that "We have promises to keep..and miles to go before we sleep...and miles to go before we sleep..."

You may be out of my reach...but not out of my mind...iam missing u....

i still wonder as to why you came into my life..ive already had enough before your entry...i still remember,me being very cautious..thats because of the lesson ive learnt...i was not in need of you earlier..i was already living a comfortable life without you...i still wonder as to why you came into my life...u know what...iam experiencing sleepless nights, which ive never experienced earlier, never...i cant believe that i was able to sleep only for two hours yesterday..why?..its a battle inside...i dont know who is going to win... this pain is suffocating...the decision to depart was wise and practical...but, facing it is very difficult...iam trying hard to, not to hate you......you are now like a ball in my throat....i do believe in the time machine..i hope the passage of time shall change everything...crossing this phase...iam pulling all my energy to bring something positive out of this phase....Deep from my heart, i wish you all the best for a peaceful life...good luck dear..

Optimism & Pessimism...is that a way of life...differs from person to person...in that way i ignore people tagging me a pessimist...who cares...
mmm...until last week i was in peace...
New job..new environment..new people...learning new things...good...a brand new day..everyday...except for one thing...again "new people phobia"..i know i suffer due to this...i take hell a lot of time to mix with new people..the only consoling fact is that i finally end up finding few very good friends...i do not know if i will achieve that here...even if iam not,,iam still happy with the friends ive already got...wat else i need...
this week...mind is like a junction...different tracks...one over the other...not clear which one to take...and so iam trying to stop my engine somewhere till i get a clarity...the job sucks because of one person's attitude..he is trying to show he is a good teacher..honestly he is not..its just another way of showing off...its also called as "bhajanai"..he is good in doing that...it was really tough, yesterday..at one point of time i felt iam going to loose my patience...but thank god, i managed not to...i hope things will become ok on the days to come....
the second thing is about the old relationship...its difficult to explain what iam feeling right now...my thoughts are jumping between two extremes...& its very difficult to come out...i expect a call every second..i want to speak..iam angry that iam never getting that call...(the expectations that iam expected to expect in a relationship)... iam trying to tell myself that this is how this has to end...after so much of waiting, i called...but no response...iam trying to tell these things again & again to my mind...after so much of waiting, i get a call...i speak for a very short time and the line got disconnected...my mobile rings again,,,but i do not want to pick the call...i expect that the same pain ive undergone, shud be felt by the other person too...but i also think why it should happen...after so much of ringing, my phone is in rest now, i tell myself that this has to end....but the fate is that this is not coming to an end...and ultimately my mind is restless...i have learnt this lesson already...and i have been very cautious in the beginning...but still things dragged me into it, things got clarified, things got confused again, and now its moving towards the end..and iam undergoing it again..its paining sometimes..more to learn from life i suppose...

what am I searching for?

Well...iam searching for the one which would really interests me a lott...which would make me busy...

Thank you so much my dear GOD.....thanks

SEE THE BRIGHT SIDE OF THINGS

I am God.
Today I will be handling all of your problems.

Please remember that I do not need your help.

If life happens to deliver a situation to you that you cannot handle, do not attempt to resolve it. Kindly put it in the SFGTD (something for God to do) box. All situations will be resolved, but in my time, not yours.

Once the matter is placed into the box, do not hold onto it by worrying about it. Instead, focus on all the wonderful things that are present in your life now.

If you find yourself stuck in traffic, don't despair. There are people in this world for whom driving is an unheard of privilege.

Should you have a bad day at work, think of the man who has been out of work for years.

Should you despair over a relationship gone bad, think of the person who has never known what it's like to love and be loved in return.

Should you grieve the passing of another weekend, think of the woman in dire straits, working twelve hours a day, seven days a week to feed her children.

Should your car break down, leaving you miles away from assistance; think of the paraplegic who would love the opportunity to take that walk.

Should you notice a new gray hair in the mirror, think of the cancer patient in chemo who wishes she had hair.

Should you find yourself at a loss and pondering what is life all about, asking what is my purpose? Be thankful. There are those who didn't live long enough to get the opportunity.

Should you find yourself the victim of other people's bitterness, ignorance, smallness or insecurities, remember, things could be worse. You could be one of them.
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almost for 10 days...i could feel that the people around me are suffering....the reason is...iam blabbering, rattling, ranting, what not?.....thats basically due to the eccentric thoughts inside me...iam being very careful in using the word "eccentric"...because it may sound odd....is this word related to psycho...thats what my uncle said on the other day...but i feel every human being is eccentric in someway or the other....sometimes....and so iam...iam trying to figure out the reason for this...partly succeded.....the reason is "ripples"....they are widening and they never rest..they are CONTINUOS....non-stop.....iam pulling all that inside me to bring back peace.....not able to...may be due to things thats happening around me....iam not the reason for the ripples...its somebody else throwing stones...my defending failed..after all iam yet another human being...(ordinary person with ordinary thoughts and emotions)...."hope" is the tonic which iam taking right now...it reacts for sometime....i could see that iam loosing control....but helpless....
iam searching for the one which will bring back PEACE......
iam trying to accept me as what iam and not as what i dream to be....an ordinary person and not a superman...
iam trying to accept the fact that people who are really close will leave us one day....nothing stays.....
all the building will collapse one day
iam trying to make me realise that "life is still beautiful"...and its better...may be not the best in the world...but its still better
iam trying to smile inspite of these .....
life is all about balancing...everybody does it and so me...

Atlast...reached a stage in my life where its "Me Vs My life" (copyright @ a fellow blogger)........
things are happening...something somewhere somehow says in someway that this is the time to take risks....huv much iam prepared...i really do not know....the thoughts are really eccentric...they go up and suddenly come down...never stay in-between...

1. career -
offer on hand
the current job is comfortable because
the BEST bosses
very pleasant and friendly environment
zero pressure
freedom to do things
i can be what iam...need not prove me
(i would say more comfortable except for the below mentioned reasons)
staying alone
missing parents/friends/more than everything my sis
expenses
career growth
traveling to & fro every weekend (it is having its own effect on health)
what this offer promises
career growth
back to home
financial comfort
what iam afraid of
all the above comforts iam enjoying currently.

2. Land
time to do it
but
cant completely rely on the persons involved
Vitamin M
financial commitments after that

3. For Me
getting clarity
clarity
practical thinking
not possible
saying good bye soon
iam suffering
bondage...very hard to break
more attached on these lonely days
very hard to accept or digest
unable to accept the fact that iam reaching the end of the road with this relationship
but still.....
as i said earlier....thats huv things are happening...i have nothing to do except to sit and watch...risks involved....but the results are not in my hands.....driven by what and whom...god only knows....May God bless me...please............thanks

If you are kind, people may accuse you of being selfish, and having ulterior motives;
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Be kind anyway....

It was a terrific yesterday....
there are very many things happening in my life offlate.
Each one of these are important and might twist my life altogether..
all are in most of the cases unique (not connected) and in some cases connected in depth
relationships - blood related, distant
friendships - emotionally bound, casual
abt me - my character & attitude - inside and outside
career - to move or not to
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Early in the morning, had a very bad dream...i could remember a glimpse of it..as usual it was a discussion/bashing session with uncles....later my roommates told me that i was shouting on top of my voice while asleep....using almost all the bad lwords in english & tamil..
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today brought some clarity on the "emotionally bound friendships"... conversation which lasted hours together....finally....it concluded in a way that i am going to be all alone...why it came and why it is leaving?? honestly i dont know...people need me and they dont need me too..its very difficult to gauge anything frankly...life's beautiful sometimes....its a stage and iam performing...it started and so naturally it is proceeding towards the end...iam praying to god not to start it again...
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Am I selfish? thats the question inside me which could have triggered the bad dream
...knowing me...its tough without a mentor...do i have to be happy...or do i have to be in depression....trying to take things as they come...."being me" is very difficult...without actually knowing who i am....sometimes i wonder if my thoughts are going to eat me (with salt and pepper)..
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the ripples are widening

BHAGAWAT GITA 6.6 ~ :

bandhur atmatmanas tasya
yenatmaivatmana jitah
anatmanas tu satrutve
vartetatmaiva satru-vat

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{For him who has conquered the mind, the mind is the best of friends; but for one who has failed to do so, his very mind will be the greatest enemy.}

You are remembered for the rules you break.
Douglas MacArthur

It was not just another day...
all started at 11
first round - int - 25% confident - performance to my knowledge was not OK.
cleared
second round - w t - 50% confident - performance satisfactory.
cleared
third round - int -75% confident - satisfactory
cleared
Final round - int - 99.9% confident - performance good
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cleared but not offered ......for some silly reasons....

the end @7
its not the failure that matters. the meter started at 25%. But the 99.9% that was hit for a six which i find very difficult to regain...thats the problem with "hoping"....iam pulling the almighty, all my mighty, friends, inspirers and everyone possible into the scene to pull me up...trying to find hope in each and every move...like sms'es from friends...under ordinary circumstances i wonder if i would have given this importance to those forwarded msgs....
black------------white
bright-----------dark
right------------wrong
optimism--------pessimism
yes------------no
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as always, the choices are readily available....
to choose is an art
and blah.blah.blah.blah.

Nothing really matters.....
iam getting older and older and older.....everyday
there are always the same two choices in front of me...choosing one is as usual difficult..
being single...sometimes with commitments.....many-a-times without...
eating the same menu everyday
dont care if they call me or not
dont care if my language is good or bad
dont care if i hurt them or not
dont care if iam getting appreciated or not
dont care if this post is incomplete
dont care if it rains or not
dont care if i need to save or not
dont care if i need to shave or not
dont care if someone watches me smoking or not
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dont care if someone cares for me or not
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life's calling........and i dont care
nothing really matters

Venue – Grandpa’s house

Date – 07-05-07

Time – 11.00pm to 2.00am

Four hours of non-stop bashing. All under the tag of “well-wishing”. After all that, only one thing is very clear. I have neither got a solution nor we came to a conclusion. He bashed me for that too. I am cursing me for taking a decision on talking to him. I know I have failed many a times earlier in trying to communicate my thoughts to him. I don’t know why I tried doing it yesterday. May be, he took advantage of my circumstances and went on in dropping piles of dirt on my face. Challenging my confidence. Testing my truthfulness. Testing everything inside me. At one stage I stopped arguing with him, because I felt like the argument was more inclined towards his side. That’s what he wanted. Is that a revenge?? I don’t know. Whatever I said went was hit for a six. Today, I feel like a duck-out batsman. Mind is again like “idiappam”. That’s overdoze, I feel like spitting. For one thing I am happy. I have been cautious enough in rejecting his proposal finally. I don’t want to become a puppet again in his hands. At this moment, I don’t know whether it was a fair decision or not, but I don’t want to do that mistake again. Nowadays, I have started hating well-wishers. It might take some time for me to recover. The ripples are increasing & widening in my mind, but don’t know what to write

I tend to be very careful…this kind of feeling happens only with very few people…even the slightest move of the other person against me would hurt me like hell...trying to be careful is a defensive formula to adopt….not to peep…not to voluntarily interrupt…its liking admiring an animal without entering into its circle…May be putting a circle around me…not to cross boundaries…I wouldn’t say its pretending….but as I said earlier, with some relationships mind becomes fragile…breaking it or not is our choice….life’s full of choices, sometimes…

I live with music..I know...but my way of liking something is something different I believe...I don’t get attracted towards a song, the first time I hear...I wish I do it in that way...but unfortunately that’s not the way I have been programmed...for that fact I have disliked many songs after listening to it only once....I mean I have never bothered to take heed again….btw…the Robert miles effect is nothing but an experience in this form….long long ago, I became fond of the song “children” by Robert miles…got pulled towards the band, somehow got the album “organiks2005”…I expected something similar to that song which inspired me in the new album…mmm…disappointed…that’s it…kept the album aside…..yesterday after more than one year…while I was busy washing my clothes, sneaked in the CD into the player…few songs caught my mind….today played it again, without purposefully sitting and listening to them….two pieces inspired me …..listened it again, again and again….now @office…the music is still playing inside my mind…I wonder how I missed this song the first time I heard….no clue!!!

Contentment : Happiness with one's situation in life

Satisfaction : The contentment one feels when one has fulfilled a desire, need, or expectation

Life's calling..........where am i now??

parthaney en sarathy......

I am trying to make it simple....let the colors, the people, the relationships, the thoughts, the purpose shall be simple....very simple...let these colors shall absorb me inside...let there be a simple & fulfilling life....I am trying not to leave any trace...

COLORFUL!!!..............REALLY COLORFUL.....

slowly uncloaking me.....colors started peeping inside ...took some time to decorate this space...after all this is mine...change never changes....am looking forward...

not confused@#$#$#5^$#%$#

After an enthusiastic half-a-day.....not half-a-day....ive been filled with enthu for almost more than two days......now its sudden silence....this silence is sucking all the tentacles & wings i've spread on these days....its not sadness...but a perfect silence...which is so strong...it can absorb the toughest blow.....

it gives pleasure to the senses, the feeling of being needed by someone or something...rather than me needing something or someone.....thats another clarity on the life's necessity...!!!

confused@$#%&$%#@#..........

Kudos to me....this is my 100th post......

The Best Moments in Life

1. Falling in love. 
2. Laughing till your stomach hurts. 
3. Enjoying a ride down the country side. 
4. Listening to your favorite song on the radio.  
5. Going to sleep listening to the rain pouring outside. 
6. Getting out of the shower and wrapping yourself with
  a warm, fuzzy towel.
7. Passing your final exams with good grades.  
8. Being a part of an interesting conversation. 
9. Finding some money in some old pants. 
10. Laughing at yourself.  
11. Sharing a wonderful dinner with all your friends. 
12. Laughing without a reason.  
13. "Accidentally" hearing someone say something good about you.  
14. Watching the sunset. 
15. Listening to a song that reminds you of an important
   person in your life
16. Receiving or giving your first kiss.  
17. Feeling this buzz in your body when seeing
   this "special" someone. 
18. Having a great time with your friends. 
19. Seeing the one you love happy.  
20. Wearing the shirt of a person you love and
   smelling his/her perfume. 
21. Visiting an old friend of yours and
   remembering great memories. 
22. Hearing someone telling you "I LOVE YOU"
&
23. Someone thanking you for "being there"

why not???

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While hopping, landed here (nice blog!!) and found this, and the final product is here...:-)

You Are a Centaur

In general, you are a very cautious and reserved person. However, you are also warm hearted, and you enjoy helping others in practical ways. You are a great teacher, and you are really good at helping people get their lives in order. You are very intuitive, and you go with your gut. You make good decisions easily.

What Mythological Creature Are You?

Your Expression Number is 1

You have the skills to be a top executive or businessperson. But first you must develop your natural capacity to be a good leader. You are truly original - with a creative approach to life and a very sharp mind. You reach for the sky, and you have the potential to reach it. Assertive and straight forward, you have little need for supervision. You are self-confident, self-reliant, and courageous in your convictions. While you sometimes fear loneliness, you prefer to be left alone. A bit self centered, you may be hard to life with at times. You also have a strong dominant streak - which can push others away at times.

What's Your Expression Number?

Your Personality is Very Rare (INFP)

Your personality type is dreamy, romantic, elegant, and expressive. Only about 5% of all people have your personality, including 6% of all women and 4% of all men You are Introverted, Intuitive, Feeling, and Perceiving.

How Rare Is Your Personality?

Really interesting..huh!!....well iam exploring....

I go where my feet takes me everyday
Tommorrow
I wake up to see iam still alive and the journey continues
Everynight
Iam happy that not all the days are alike
and i dont look forward for a tommorrow
But tommorrow never dies
If i dont see a tommorrow, today
I wonder what will happen to my blog...!!!!

Abundance of energy

Penetrating deep

Very deep

Circles

Small

Then large

Then very large

Hollowness getting widened

Movement sometimes direct

Sometimes crank

Colors confusing

Energy in search of ecstasy

Pure ecstasy

Energy partly dissolved

End black and bright

Pulling, more than pushing

A very long thread

Both the ends invisible……may be infinity

Iam trying to recollect.....

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The last time when I laughed aloud

The last time I participated in a family function

The last time I went out with my family

The last time I sat next to my father and listened to him

The last time I appreciated my mom for the good food she serves

The last time when I had stopped thinking

The last time I rested with my head on my sister’s lap

The last time I cried with my heart inside-out

The last time I helped a fellow being

The last time I appreciated a person

The last time I expected something from someone

The last time I got scared and stayed in fear

The last time I wished someone good luck

The last time I worked too very hard with enthusiasm

The last time I passed a moment without dreaming

The last time I felt proud of me

The last time I cried upon seeing a movie or reading a book

The last time I did not feel lonely

The last time I felt I am really useful to the world

The last time I thanked GOD

The last time I loved my life

Most of the times iam getting twisted in a tangled mass of thoughts. one reason could be due to the fact that iam not able to arrive at a solution. There are always two options i believe, both in opposite directions..the art lies in choosing the one which really suits...kind of "yes" or "no", "true" or "false"..times, during my school days, i would love to answer these questions..but in real life, its different...Choosing one, might lead to good or evil...or it might lead me nowhere….for eg., read in a magazine “one shouldn’t feel that “this is my place”…it leads to stagnation and no further movement possible..one has to be like a flowing river where the water is very clean due to the running it does”…this is one way…I felt the thought is really nice….the other side of it is “why the hell iam trying this very hard to make me settle into my life. Am I not stagnating myself in one place”…..so there are choices….i can wander or I can stay back, build my hut, and get settled….its really hard to choose one….

iam restless inside
waiting for a letter
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trying very hard to suppress the expectations....

Hell and the Heaven......The wanderer....

Saturday....
Really wanted to go to chennai....
My boss was in a mad rush...preparing everything for his Overseas trip...
@5.30pm
Me: Shall we discuss on the tasks to be completed by me in ur absence?
Boss: sure..we will do it now...
(after 15 mins)
Me: do u think i need to be here tommorrow (sunday)
Boss: Yes...i think i might need ur help...
me : Grrrrr......
@7.30pm
Boss: pls be reachable tomm
Me: I think i have completed all the tasks for today and tomm...do u really think u would need my help tomm...
Boss: I think so...but r u planning to go out somewhere??
Me: sss....iam planning to go to chennai.
boss: thats going to create probs..y dont u do it next week...well iam going to leave on monday in the mrning...i might have something tomm to update you...
me: but i will be back on monday, before u leave..
boss: no thats not gonna work....
me: ok... (bullshit...wat the hell is he thinking.. he is a crap or what...iam sure he is not gonna call me tomm.....@@#$##%^^&^*^)

@8.30pm
while on my way to the Mess for dinner, i was grumbling like anything to my friend on the phone..i do not wish to stay back this week..that too on a saturday...being alone is like living in the HELLLLL....
I shud find a place wherein i can go and come back in few hrs if at all i get a call frm my boss...where to go??????

@9.30pm
realised that there is one place, where i may not be expelled out for any reason....

@ 10.15pm
prepared a rough travel plan, getting some details on the bus routes from one of my colleague...
@11.00pm
Here iam....with a travel bag....on my way to Aliyar, a very nice hill station near Pollachi...planning to visit "Arivu thirukoil"....an ashram of Vedhathri Maharishi....
@11.30pm
got into a bus to Coimbatore...
@2.30pm
Coimbatore..Gandhipuram bus stand.....I like kovai for two reasons...
1. I have spent one year of my childhood here
2. Hometown of one of my best friend
Things noticed
1. How many bus stands totally??? for pollachi, i need to go to uakkadam.for trichy, i need to go to singanallur....!!!!!
2. Gandhipuram bus stand is very small with very few platforms
3. the bell system on the local buses
4. After almost 18yrs iam touching kovai
Took a bus to pollachi

@4.30am
reached pollachi. semi silent bus stand. waited till 5.15 for a bus to Aliyar.. as this is my first visit to the place, wondered huv much time it would take for me to reach the place

@5.15am
In the bus to aliyar. dark outside.Cool morning breeze. Road surrounded on both the sides by trees

@6.00am
Reached aliyar. when i stepped out of the bus, it was dark. Hills . trees. a tea shop with a kerosene lamp. few locals standing on the sides of the road. A forest ranger on his wasy into the forest for counting animals...took a cup of tea and headed towards Arivu thirukoil....half a km walk on the hills...Fog...It started becoming bright..........Here it is .........THE HEAVEN....

@6.30am
After enquiries at the security, i was allowed inside. Iam unable to find any word to describe the beauty of the place. Its on the backside of the Aliyar dam. a small canal on the side with hill water (could smell the freshness and the sand it took alongwith) flowing inside the dam. on the foothills fully surrounded by beautiful trees.....Heaven

@6.45am
Joined the Q to get a cup of tea
alone
No words inside me
I have nothing to communicate to anyone out there
took tea
took bath

@7.45am
Sat on the steps
alone
peace
trees and hills in front of me
was starring at them
did nothing

@8.45am
went to the meditation hall
meditated

@10.00am
came out
visited maharishi's Jeeva samadhi
wandered outside

@10.30am
sat on the grass
Peace
Peace
Peace
Peace inside

@11.00am

Iam out
Back to earth

The Lord.....

Kind of an adventurous jrney....to meet a friend of mine whom iam seeing after many years...he had come frm Madura and me from Chennai....planned suddenly..spoke to him at 5 pm and i was there in Guindy at 5.30pm....reached kaveripakkam at 7.30pm (a small town on the chennai-bangalore highway...apprx 100kms from chennai)....got a bus at 8.45 to banavaram, which is again a very very small town, 15kms from Kaveripakkam...reached there at 9.30...my frnd was waiting there for me...the adventure started from there....this tiny village (koothambakkam) is apprx 3 kms from banavaram....and there is no public transport available at that time...hence we had no other way except to walk in the DARK...on the lonely road surrounded by trees and farms...no lights except moon....remembering all those "good old college days"....we reached the village at 10.15pm....